Keep Your Faith

... Finally, I left a few more assignments to be done. Hectic weeks passed.

Gonna concentrate more on my studies. I-disallow-any-mistakes

Guys, I'm so busy recently. Owh My Gawd.
I got no time to blog about my experience in Japan. I will talk about it in one of the coming posts *finger crossed.
Finals coming, and you know this is the time when you have to submit everything especially your assignments and having presentations with quizzes coming along the way. This is insane.

One. Let's talk something about what I did recently apart from being insane doing the workload above.
I get the chance to participate in drama performance with a bunch of great friends for Eon Spring Festival - The Unforgettable Night. And you know what, the amazing thing is when you can laugh everything out and really relax by enjoying what you're doing. Sometimes you may see yourself inside the characters. We were really glad when people say : you guys did a great job. The performance was really nice. This is a quality drama performance.

Two. I attended the Annual General Meeting 2012 and presented everything about my department, the achievements and non-achievements. It was so great and memorable by seeing what have my teammates and I'd done for Outgoing Exchange Department 2011/2012. Although challenges and obstacles came along the way, but we managed to beat it down and moved on. Eventhough we did not achieve everything, but to me, moving together with all of my teammates till now is already an extra achievement for me. At least I've see all of your development, how much effort you paid for the department and how much you wish not to end the term. As a Vice President, these are what I'm really proud of all of you. I love my teammates. I wish all the best for your future undertakings.
*Signing off as Vice President of Outgoing Exchange Department for term 2011/2011 *cry
*I'm listening to Don't Stop Believing when I'm writing this. Such a good feeling

Life always starts with one word, 'Opportunity'. I don't get used to this word until I joined AIESEC, when everyone is telling me to grab the opportunity whenever you can, don't miss out the chances.

One year ago, I grab the opportunity and I ran for Local Committee Vice President position. I told myself, I just wanted to go through the process to see whether can I step out from my comfort zone. Finally, I got elected, but it is not the functional area I wanted. I got Outgoing Exchange instead of Talent Management or Incoming Exchange. By then, I got tonnes of doubts in my head. Questioning whether should I accept this role and move on to lead a team in achieving exchange goals and numbers for Local Committee Universiti Utara Malaysia.

What I did : I Made Myself Clear

Without a clue on my mind what is Outgoing Exchange Department is about and in the mean time I wanted to challenge myself in taking up the position, I accepted to be the Vice President of Outgoing Exchange, one of the Management Team member. Sooner, I got my 3 team managers and we started planning for the whole coming term. I started to learn as much as I could about stuffs in Outgoing Exchange Department.

What I did : I Learnt

Of course, I admit that I didn't start my term very well. I had no clue on my department and yet I have to lead my team of 3 more which they were in Outgoing Exchange team before this. Plans are not well planned enough, knowledge are not good enough to handle tough circumstances, couldn't make decision due to much restriction. This is how we start our term. We did off campus recruitment, we're happy as this is the first off campus recruitment we did in few years, but yet the numbers is still not good. We did in campus recruitment during on September 2011 to recruit Exchange Participant, but still not much turned up. My department considered under performing. It was devastating, but as a Vice President, I know I couldn't show my team how worried and how clueless I feel about hyping up the numbers and results after the work we've done. When it comes to reality, people will only look at your result. Only that.

What I did : Reflection and Self Motivation

I got my 9 Junior Executives after that. I wanted to ensure their learning in my department and have them to discover more about their own capabilities. My managers and I started to give education and transit as much knowledge as we could to have them to achieve the result and goal, even we had simulations. But things still doesn't work out, we had another recruitment drive, but it doesn't seems to show good result as well. And still there are not much signed up to go for Exchange. We were still considered under performing in December, although I manage to get 2 person to Realize in the next February which is the lowest peak in our timeline, but it doesn't feel good moving towards the goal alone.

What I did : I Asked Myself What The Team Need

Quarter 3 started, my whole team planned for another Recruitment Drive, Information Session and Review Board for March. I delegated tasks for everyone in my team to enable them to apply what they'd learn in the educations we has been trying to deliver. I've been making sure they are well prepared with their own tasks and work before I depart to Japan for Asia Pacific Exchange Leadership Development Seminar. I see their hard work, how much they wanted to achieve the goals as a team.

What I did : I Monitor and Motivate

Now, April 5th, we've managed to Raised 43 Forms from the term start, Realized 16 Experiences. All of us are happy and glad being in the team. We gave, failed, believed, hold on, and performed. We have less than 2 months before our term ends. I promised myself and the team to do whatever best I can. I'm proud and I believe we can do more than how much we've achieved now in the remaining less than 2 months.

What We did : We Performed

As for me, I decided - I failed - I Overcomes - I Succeed. The only reason I hold on to now is to watch the development and achievements my team and I could do and achieve. We did it and now we are on our way to the final achievement. As a management team member, this is what I faced. The reason I mention management team instead of executive board is because I'm going through it with my managers. Maybe it will seem normal for any position you get even you got the experience, but trust me, every role has it's toughness and difficulties. If you are applying for management team or going for a position, please be prepared enough to face the challenges and obstacles you will not know sometimes what to do when it comes to you. You will not know how demotivation will hunt you down. I expect you to put effort in what you're doing or you will be doing. If you don't expect to commit or to face all these, do not apply for anything until you're ready, because you will end up quitting your job.

What you should do : Ask Yourself

Have you asked yourself? If the answer is 'yes, I will go for it'. I will put all my trust and believe on you to do your best. Constant reflect on yourself to know what you want and need. It's two different thing.

I will tell you about my AIJE - Awesome-Indescribable-Japan-Experience during my semester break which is from 5th April to 13th April. Because right now I have to settle my academic stuffs, deal with lecturers. =)

Stay Tuned.
Have a nice day guys.

Every Local Committee is having election now. I'm really happy and proud of those who actually took up the step and run for Vice President and President position. My manager - Monique and one of my JE - Yi You passed their Vote of Confident. I'm really excited for them despite how the result will be after interview. No matter how, I still feel very glad of myself running for President position even though I failed. =)

- what doesn't kill you makes you stronger -

- He is my Father -

It really became an experience for me, I failed for the interview. Which means that I'm not elected, none of us was elected. All of them gone through an empty process.

I feel like I've gained experience. I know I'm happy I've gone through that challenging stage. But somehow I felt disappointment and sadness in me where I couldn't explain to you exactly how I feel.
Whenever someone asks me how am I. If I were to tell you I'm not sad and not disappointed, I'm lying to you. I managed to hold my tears back. sounded like i'm a baby right.

I really have to thank Joon Joon, May May, Kar Yen, my roommate Marcus, Toccara for listening to me and tried their best to console and motivate me. And for those who came and ask me how am I. To be honest, I really don't know how to answer them when they ask "are you alright?", because who doesn't feel devastating after all of what they've been through and failed in what they've been fighting for. I know what I want after this, I'm not going for second round. I decided to let go MDF, but I will still go APXLDS in Japan ! I really love my parents, this is one of the reason that I've been holding on for such a long time. =)

I feel appreciated although this failure doesn't mean anything to you. I like a quote where, you will know who's your friend when you fall down. Many thanks for all the concern although few of them doesn't really do well consoling. HAHA

- if there's a reason for you to hold on for so long, who or what would it be - 

After the holiday, things went back to normal again.

But things changed, we got a new building for library, new feelings, new relationships and etc etc. One thing never change, Me !

Came back for around a week plus, been busy for the new semester courses and AIESEC stuffs. I got friends accompanying me in like almost every classes. It is good to have them around when you're sleepy. :)
Apart from that, I went through the Vote of Confident for Local Committee President applicant where I need to deliver speeches and questioned by the plenary hall. I passed the stage. Then, I attended an interview which will still remain as the scariest interview I've ever attended till now. I'm happy with myself no matter how the result would be, it will be an added experience to me in my AIESEC adventure. I gave my best shot, so I'll die with no regrets. Weeeeeeeeee

- No matter how worse it would go, this occasion will definitely bring something to you -

I've been so busy for the past 1 week.

Attended MyLDS - It was a great one, I can't believe I'm still happy although I'm in the MNC track.

Shortlisted and passed MDF - I got to subsidized for RM1k for me to go to APXLDS in Japan. So nice right? I feel very happy to get this fund.

LCP Application - I submitted my LCP Application for AIESEC in UUM and I'll be having Vote of Confident in this coming 21st February.

Academic - My goal is not to miss a class whenever I'm available to attend one. I want to get a better one. I can do that !

Going back UUM tomorrow, kinda sad but I'm excited to go back to start everything and I'm anticipating for the trip to Japan next month ! 13th - 26th March. But I have to get my visa done first. Weeeeeeeeeee

Yes, I've been spending my time in Klang, Kuala Lumpur. All I can say is it was a blast holiday.
The most important is I got to spend times with my friends and family. I met many friends that I could probably meet once a year. Is like seriously long I didn't see their face. I'm not bad okay.

I've registered for APXLDS in Japan, I've applied for MDF (Member Development Fund) and I've decided to fill in application for LCP (Local Committee President). Hopefully I can finish answering the questions by 10th February, go Shen Chieh ! Plus I got an EP is realizing at Poland tomorrow, I'm like shooooo happy, after all the effort and it is a February realization.

Next, I'll show you pictures, because picture tells everything, i'm lazy

Gong Hei Fat Choi at K session

I feel angry, when my brother bring friends come into the house in the middle of the night when all of my family members are sleeping. It is noisy indeed and I feel disturbed.

the thing I can't accept IS WHEN I'M DISTURBED WHEN I WANT SILENT.
please la, be considerate, if you're the one how would you feel?!
he do whatever he wants, he don't think, no i mean he never think about one's feeling.

I'm back in Klang town. So happy right?
Chinese New Year song everywhere, Wishes everywhere.

I managed to use only 2 out of 4 Book Voucher. The staff said because the other 2 don't have a complete university cop on it. I was like WTH?! and they require me to get a new one from my uni authority. That means I have to go all the way back and exchange it and then only I can buy it at Kedah's bookstore. Great.
But they good thing is we managed to get 5 books, 4 for my mom and 1 for me out of the 100MYR book voucher.

Lets start with the "LO" behind every sentence.
you every time like that want lo. if i want to know about it i already ask you lo. now you want to scold other first lo. i really don't understand lo.

- I know what to do under certain circumstances - 

am gonna finish my last paper today.

- if you're not riding on a roller coaster now, you life is just dull -