Keep Your Faith

It really became an experience for me, I failed for the interview. Which means that I'm not elected, none of us was elected. All of them gone through an empty process.

I feel like I've gained experience. I know I'm happy I've gone through that challenging stage. But somehow I felt disappointment and sadness in me where I couldn't explain to you exactly how I feel.
Whenever someone asks me how am I. If I were to tell you I'm not sad and not disappointed, I'm lying to you. I managed to hold my tears back. sounded like i'm a baby right.

I really have to thank Joon Joon, May May, Kar Yen, my roommate Marcus, Toccara for listening to me and tried their best to console and motivate me. And for those who came and ask me how am I. To be honest, I really don't know how to answer them when they ask "are you alright?", because who doesn't feel devastating after all of what they've been through and failed in what they've been fighting for. I know what I want after this, I'm not going for second round. I decided to let go MDF, but I will still go APXLDS in Japan ! I really love my parents, this is one of the reason that I've been holding on for such a long time. =)

I feel appreciated although this failure doesn't mean anything to you. I like a quote where, you will know who's your friend when you fall down. Many thanks for all the concern although few of them doesn't really do well consoling. HAHA

- if there's a reason for you to hold on for so long, who or what would it be - 

After the holiday, things went back to normal again.

But things changed, we got a new building for library, new feelings, new relationships and etc etc. One thing never change, Me !

Came back for around a week plus, been busy for the new semester courses and AIESEC stuffs. I got friends accompanying me in like almost every classes. It is good to have them around when you're sleepy. :)
Apart from that, I went through the Vote of Confident for Local Committee President applicant where I need to deliver speeches and questioned by the plenary hall. I passed the stage. Then, I attended an interview which will still remain as the scariest interview I've ever attended till now. I'm happy with myself no matter how the result would be, it will be an added experience to me in my AIESEC adventure. I gave my best shot, so I'll die with no regrets. Weeeeeeeeee

- No matter how worse it would go, this occasion will definitely bring something to you -

I've been so busy for the past 1 week.

Attended MyLDS - It was a great one, I can't believe I'm still happy although I'm in the MNC track.

Shortlisted and passed MDF - I got to subsidized for RM1k for me to go to APXLDS in Japan. So nice right? I feel very happy to get this fund.

LCP Application - I submitted my LCP Application for AIESEC in UUM and I'll be having Vote of Confident in this coming 21st February.

Academic - My goal is not to miss a class whenever I'm available to attend one. I want to get a better one. I can do that !

Going back UUM tomorrow, kinda sad but I'm excited to go back to start everything and I'm anticipating for the trip to Japan next month ! 13th - 26th March. But I have to get my visa done first. Weeeeeeeeeee

Yes, I've been spending my time in Klang, Kuala Lumpur. All I can say is it was a blast holiday.
The most important is I got to spend times with my friends and family. I met many friends that I could probably meet once a year. Is like seriously long I didn't see their face. I'm not bad okay.

I've registered for APXLDS in Japan, I've applied for MDF (Member Development Fund) and I've decided to fill in application for LCP (Local Committee President). Hopefully I can finish answering the questions by 10th February, go Shen Chieh ! Plus I got an EP is realizing at Poland tomorrow, I'm like shooooo happy, after all the effort and it is a February realization.

Next, I'll show you pictures, because picture tells everything, i'm lazy

Gong Hei Fat Choi at K session

I feel angry, when my brother bring friends come into the house in the middle of the night when all of my family members are sleeping. It is noisy indeed and I feel disturbed.

the thing I can't accept IS WHEN I'M DISTURBED WHEN I WANT SILENT.
please la, be considerate, if you're the one how would you feel?!
he do whatever he wants, he don't think, no i mean he never think about one's feeling.

I'm back in Klang town. So happy right?
Chinese New Year song everywhere, Wishes everywhere.

I managed to use only 2 out of 4 Book Voucher. The staff said because the other 2 don't have a complete university cop on it. I was like WTH?! and they require me to get a new one from my uni authority. That means I have to go all the way back and exchange it and then only I can buy it at Kedah's bookstore. Great.
But they good thing is we managed to get 5 books, 4 for my mom and 1 for me out of the 100MYR book voucher.

Lets start with the "LO" behind every sentence.
you every time like that want lo. if i want to know about it i already ask you lo. now you want to scold other first lo. i really don't understand lo.

- I know what to do under certain circumstances - 

am gonna finish my last paper today.

- if you're not riding on a roller coaster now, you life is just dull -

I've made a list of books to buy with my vouchers worth 200MYR. I hope I can find these book in popular and exchange it with the vouchers because I get to know from some friends that we're only able to use it on academic books. Are these considered? Why not, it teaches me lessons about life.

Not to worry, I've checked at some forum. As long as the book or whatever thing is inside the authorized bookstore, you can purchase by the vouchers.

- a sister is a forever friend -

Been reading this book recently,

- healing a relationship doesn't go to the problems first, but emotions -

3.44am, I don't know why I couldn't sleep at this point of time, but definitely not because of 2012 is coming. Just insomnia. So I decided to write about my feeling towards the 2011 me.

Family
I am a person that always love my family, no matter how it is, my family is the motivation of me making any decision since I'm young. I have a lovely dad, mom, elder brother and younger sister. 2011 had made me still realizing how important they are to me. They have shown their caring, passion, forgiveness, respect and LOVE to me and it really make me feels like : how I would be without any single one of you. If you ask me, they will always be my first priority at any point of time in my future. LOVE YOU !

Friends
I knew a lot, seriously a lot of friends in 2011. Through AIESEC mostly. And I've learnt terribly a lot from my friends around me because I can see various kind of personalities, is like pasar malam selling t-shirts. I cherish knowing more friends is because it could sometimes challenge me to solve problems, to listen, to motivate and to understand people more. Although it taught me hard lessons sometimes, but one thing I know is to see everything clearly because people have intention to do what they are doing.  You have to experience that lesson yourself to see the real side of that person. Of course I have good friends and vice versa, I have friends who I can share everything, but some just don't worth me sharing. I don't say that I'm good at analyzing people but I'm pretty sure that I'm good at observing. Why, because I wanted to people to treat me the same way I did to people, but I think I always get this wrongly. Anyhow, I just dislike people cheating on me. I found some. I couldn't blame them, they're just using you for their own good purpose. But despite of being dishonest, bad, dramatic to me, I'm really happy and thankful for learning so much from my friends around me. Don't listen to rumors !

AIESEC
It's been a roller coaster year for me being in AIESEC. I was elected as the Vice President of Outgoing Exchange Department on April where I have zero knowledge about that department. I have 3 lovely managers joined me after that where they were in that department for one year already. After we planned, we executed, we failed, we pressure, we go through ups and downs in this department till now. I could say that I'm proud of everyone of us along the journey I'm in this department. It really bring me up and the passion to continue my work in AIESEC. Ask me about anything in this department, I will be glad to answer you now.  And I have friends that supported me in AIESEC and  motivated me throughout the journey. names are secret AIESEC brings many joy and happiness for my university life here. I couldn't have imagine if I didn't come across this organization during my life here. Challenge more !

So this is the main 3 things I wanted to blog about before 2011 ends. I hope every bad thing will be staying here for the remaining time and the good one could be bring forward to 2012.

As for 2011 me, what else changes do you see on me?
As for 2012 you, do whatever you think it could bring you more !

- people can motivate you, but the most powerful one is yourself -